Warning: Me blathering on about food and my weird love handles!
I know I sound like I am concerned about my weight
I realize I'm doing two things with food and eating that I never did before.
1. Eating too fast.
I read where a famous actress once said, when food is starting to taste really good, that is when she pushes herself away from the table. Now for me that is when I want to dig in. I feel like I want to gobble it all up like I'm in a pie eating contest or something. I don't understand why I gobble food. I'm not sitting at a boarding house table where you have to fight for the food; I'm usually sitting with my own tray in front of the t.v. with the meal I've picked up for myself sitting on it. I've not been stingy with myself I assure you so why the big rush.
I can't explain this but recently I started to burp more and made the connection to eating too fast. I feel a little foolish for inflicting this on myself...no excuse.
2. Not controlling portion size
When I've cooked something good, I want to eat lots of it. I just can't seem satisfied with the kind of portions I know I should be happy with. The half cup of this or small square of that. What's wrong with me???
And I'm going to add a third thing. Do you ever eat even though you aren't hungry? It seems I take that notion a step further. I eat even when I feel full. That is awful to admit and I have no explanation why I would do that. Baffled, totally baffled.
Greed, I guess it's just pure greed.
Truthfully, I'm a little disappointed in myself. I have the notion that after a lifetime of practicing healthy eating I'd have this licked. That it all would be second nature and not need any more constant attending.
Because it all can get a little tiresome. The always eating with a mind to health, the sorting out of the research, the sussing out good food, the denial of eating that donut or that cake or anything..it all gets weary. And now I know I have to be extra vigilant about portions and eating speed.
It just never ends.
But then I think I'm lucky to have this body; I'm lucky to have a healthy uncomplicated appetite.
And I'm just plain lucky to have this worry about too much food. Half the world would love to have this problem Then I feel a bit guilty.
So it goes.